Friday, December 21, 2007

tsk.

do you know the feeling when you miss someone so much
and somewhere in your chest it's actually aching?
tsk. lately it happens a lot. x'(

here i am writing about this in blog instead of telling the person. cowardliness??! again T_T

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

still, the songs are lovely

dua lagu yang sedang menjadi soundtrack saya belakangan ini. gila dah acid house mantapss


"say yes if you love me
no if you don't care
peace if you're asking me not to be there."


"this heart is a stone
, no one will ever break it.
this heart is a stone, close to you it breaks easily.
coz everything that they say tells me to go away.
but everything that I feel, tells me to stay."


For now, only for a while.. i dont care, i choose to say yes and stay.
oh yes some love has no sense. no brain. no pride. nothing. fuck.
i just hope the karma will not slap me in the face later on.
kampret. cukuplah curhat colongannya.



Monday, December 10, 2007

yesterday's gone forever

woa, haven't write anything here for a very long long time.

and yet there are so many things had happened that i'd really like to write and remember!
oh well too late, yesterday's gone forever..

so i'm back home. jakarta.
at first i thought i will be like the busiest person ever. going here and there, just wander this town till every bit of it. meet everyone i know, watch every movies, fill my craving for indonesian's food, whatever things like that to assure my 3months holiday worthwhile.

the reality is..
jakarta's traffic is horrible more than ever, and you can't really blame it on anybody.
not to mention the weird weather caused by this whole global warming issue.
kinda affect your mood in a way..
then my car got sold. syit.
why now?? why didnt my parents sold it many days before and get a new one as soon as i'm home, ackh.
as much as i hate driving here, i hate it more to depend on a driver and a single car that my whole family needs.
call me spoiled or whatever but i won't even consider to ride with kopaja or metromini xp

so until now my holidays are spent mostly on lots of sleep, songs, and facebook-ing that i start to get really tired of, hhaha.
but hey i enjoy this, im enjoying this extremely laid back times of mine.
good opportunity to reflect about myself and thinking of great things i should do in the future...
en blah. who am i to fool?
the truth is laziness once again has defeated my desire to achieve something useful.
i might as well go to sleep again. hehe

ah, and now it's raining again, lots of thunder.
i just hope for someone, wherever he is, is save and sound..